All grown up!

Wow, I'm feeling just a little overwhelmed right now in my life. I remember back many years ago when I bought my first new car, and that was a HUGE commitment. I remember thinking "I'm taking on some serious responsibility here." I now realize, that was NOTHING. I mean car vs. house. That's like San Jose vs. Boise State in football. Talk about your no-brainer. 
When I first started the whole house shopping thing I remember thinking, okay, I feel good about this, it's time to move on. And all of a sudden the time is here and the only thing on my mind is "Oh my goodness, what have I done now." This phrase as come up a multitude of times throughout my life. Such as when I moved to Hawaii for college, transferred to school in Utah, started nursing school, woke up in the MTC on a mission, later woke up in Ecuador on same mission, just outside the OR prior to surgery, in the LSAT testing room etc. And all of these things have ended up, to my knowledge anyway, being good things, or at least beneficial in some way to my life. I have regretted none of them. This is a similar situation. I am filled with emotion; excitement, nervousness, and a little scared. Okay the truth is I'm terrified, but this too shall pass. I just can't help getting the feeling it's now time to grow up. All though just like Peter Pan I would rather not. I'm sure in a few years something else will come along that makes buying a house comparative to San Jose in the above matchup. 
Then maybe I'll decide to grow up.

Multiple Personalities Anyone???

Not to long ago I was getting ready for a date, trying to decide what to wear. At first I pulled out a nice button down shirt (the only one I own) and a pair of slacks (that I have worn maybe twice this entire year). After looking at them for a minute, I threw them aside, pulled out my camo-print cargo capris and a T-shirt. Which I adorned simply with a pair of flip-flops. After careful consideration, that became my outfit of choice to wear. Now I will admit that I am far from the latest fashionista. I definitely care more about comfort then style, but I don't feel I'm completely lacking in judgement either. My final choice was determined by my desire to simply "be myself". I figure if a guy is going to like me, I want him to like the me he will see everyday, not the person I pretend to be so that I can get a second date. I had a friend tell me however that I was wrong, if I "pretend" to be someone else, apparently that person is me too. Because obviously it's always you, you don't become a different person just because you look and act different. Now, I agree with that which leads me to my point. Most people in this world must have multiple personalities. Since they are one person at work, someone else at home, entirely different at church, they go out clubbing as their alter-ego. It's really hard to keep it all straight...sometimes I wonder if even they can. So why can't people just figure out what they like, who they want to be, and be that person. People will either like you or not, but at least you will like you and the rest isn't your concern. And if you don't like yourself maybe you should do something about it. But that's an entirely different can of worms.

The blogging begins!

After years of avoiding the blog I decided that maybe it could be a productive thing after all. So here is my attempt. Let's see how well it goes. Most of the blogging will be a chronicle of my life, thoughts, and whatever else I feel the urgent desire to express.